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I didn't think I was doing too badly today (hence no crutch) until I started to do a taxim (the first move in this video). Then a slow bodywave (about six minutes in on this video). Stabbing pain with a stuck feeling on both of them. I wouldn't say that my spine eased up at all during the class, but I pushed through by trying to keep the movement small and cheating where necessary.
After the class, a couple dancers I know from a workshop earlier this fall came up to me and assumed I was doing So Much Better because I wasn't using a crutch. Being honest to a fault, I told them that I'm not doing better than when they saw me last, but that I just choose to prioritize dancing above everything else and that I use the crutch the rest of the time. I was trying to be nice about it because their comments were meant to be nice....but it hurts sometimes. I'm not one of the lucky ones that Gets Better. I admit that I am better than I was a year ago (surgery was 1/16/13), but I'm pretty much stuck at my 4-5 month post-op point.
I'm just doing the best I can with what I have....and that's all I can do.